▷ Valentine’s Day
I got dinner alone today. The fact that I didn’t have a personal date didn’t matter much. Single today is no different than single any other. For that sheer fact, I had dedicated this day to plans with my circle of friends though, we were all separated: some by timing, some by own personal dates, and some by other priorities, all of which were understandable. However, for some matters, a lot of which were inexcusable, such a gathering for those able became an impossibility.
Everyone was too full of their own pursuits to sacrifice what small substance of time they had possible to pour into a glass we were once able to fill altogether.
And though I try my best to keep my bonds as equal and as least negative as possible, this leads me to conclude that a majority will end up leaving each other and in turn leaving me. My bonds that were once able to bring us together are finally showing signs of dwindling. It seems I can’t keep together those have begun to lose the will to come together anymore and it’s never been up to me to change them.
And it seems my hate in myself to maintain what won’t want to is slowly growing day by day.
And though a significant other was the least to cross my mind in this day today, these experiences have led to believe that all I want, all I need in this life that I lead alone, is just one person who I know will be there. And that person, whoever that may be, will know that’s all I ever wanted: to be there for someone who wanted to be here.
Happy Valentine’s Day.